in regards to a certain jenkins boy

lately i have been spending a hefty amount of time with a certain jenkins boy.
things are changing so much that i hardly feel like its real.
i woke up this morning and thought, "how cruel if this were all a dream"
but its not. and now i have to just believe it.
i am trying to tred so softly in hopes not to disrupt this quietness that we have.
but im pretty clumsy so who knows :)


its really an annoying place to be. in the midst of this budding... what ever this decideds to become.
i am quite miserable.
my nerves are completely occupying my stomach so i have not the appetite for food. [i here those are called butterflies]
i have hardly the mind to think of anything else. i often do forget to eat. haha
and sleeping doesnt come very easy. late to bed and early to rise.
not intentionally i assure you.
but my mind is always there.
i feel like hes all i talk about. [sigh]
but alas, who wants to think of much else when they are smitten?
it is very hard to find words to tell my friends about this.
i just grow completely speachless. like the things are too sweet to tell.
and by speaking them they might loose some of their sweetness and become just words when they are meant to be so much more. to tell so much more.
goodness i should stop this swooning ramble.