humans are sure interesting.
life is never boring
and i think thats why.
i was driving home from point loma the other day
and i was crying
and talking to God
and i was upset with him.
a song came on my ipod
"i will show you love
like you've never loved before
i will go the distance
and back for more
if you just say the word
cause you will come alive again"
"cause i am on your side, tho the wind and waves beat against your faith
and you were on my mind when the world was made trust in me my child"
normally i love that song.
but that night it made me angry. i asked God a various assortment of questions:
Why is this so hard for me?
Why cant i just say what is in my head?
Why do i feel so unintelligent?
Why am i not good enough?
"cause i am on your side, tho the wind and rain beat against your faith
and you were on my mind when the world was made trust in me my child"
Why don't i believe you?
Why do i feel so far from you?
Why don't i believe you?
I'm pretty sure it was the loudest i have ever cried.
then i finished listening to the song
"i have heard you cry and it breaks my heart for i love you so
and i would never lie
this is not the end there is still a hope"
1 comment:
:)
That's amazing.
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