my life.

i have been spending a lot of time in my car lately. going places.

what with  all the breaking up and getting back together business with robby, lets just say home isn't really where i have wanted to spend my time.

i got very close with a group of people in a very short amount of time. and it seems that it has ended as soon as it began.

i suppose "ended" isn't the most correct word but with Eddy being gone, and other events unfolding the group has sort of dissolved. but i do suppose its for the best.

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so there i was. driving on a sunny day in San Diego. top down. Unwritten Law in the speakers and a determination to mend a friendship. i knew exactly what i was going to say and it was all planned out in my head.

about half way through my journey i see the most beautiful display of clouds ever to inhabit the sky.

they looked as if they were liquid. like instead of being just water vapor they were flowing and thick and opaque. but i digress. 

i then realized that those clouds were a-storming right over where i was headed. but i figured "nahh its no big deal."

the weather went from warm to perfect. and from perfect to chilly. me and my shorts and tank top were not too thrilled. and the beautiful clouds were starting to produce a great amount lightning and thunder.

the came the rains. falling from the beautiful clouds. they were glorious rain drops; giant and majestic. not like the tiny drizzle wanna be rain we get here in east county.

and i had the privilege of catching these rain drops with my car.

by the time i got to Temecula i was wet, cold, and a little afraid [lightning is scary]

i stopped at a Starbucks and ran in to get two large black coffees.

ran back to my car [whose top was still down] and drove to his house.

and of course, he isn't there. this is the part in the movie of my life that the music stops being inspiring and ambient. and just stops all together.

i called him.

and he was with his ex. no big deal really that it was his ex. but my "lets be friends again" speech was one of those things that was better given when it was just the two of us. it was very clear by the way he shaped each word that he was not at all in the mindset to mend the friendship.

i told him i would just leave his peace offering on his door step.

and i did 

with a clever note [i can be quite clever at times]

[the note was a second thought, seeing as a cup of coffee just chilling on your door step could be interpreted as anything i suppose]

then i put a fresh batch of duck tape on my car [whose top was now in the upright position]

and left.

and of course on my way out of the development, i pass him and his ex, as i make a wrong turn.

he gave a cold casual wave and i robotically waved back.

a little disappointed i turned up "Save Me" and drove for an hour. back to sunny San Diego.

the end.